I kissed his neck and said stop talking.
thinking my mouths touch could express
every word he wished I would say
I woke up the next morning
unknowing to the damage I’d done
to his body and heart.
/empty expressions/
hands that were once so loving became cold,
words that were once so kind became cruel.
is all of you a lie?
/uncertainty/
I looked at you and lied,
knowing that any truth I spoke
would only do you harm.
but for my own selfish reasons,
I couldn’t let you go.
/Sorry/
I wanted to call you and tell you about all the things that have changed,
then I remembered you were just another one of them.
/oblivion-unmasked/
imagining me & you was easy
it was as if we never fell apart.
/we did/
you made me see love
and in the process,
realize I’d never been in it.
//until now//
while a part of me wishes to kiss you,
another screams to run away.
knowing that I,
am not the only one,
to feel your abundance of love.
/always running/
“It makes me mad because I know I could make you so freaking happy.”
It makes me mad too.
/path-to-destruction/
He asked me what was wrong with me when I acted like myself.
I didn’t know how to reply.
/unwanted?/
I regret letting you pressure me into believing
that love was expressed through touch.
there are different forms of affection
that don’t require taking my clothes off.
/impure/
Do you love me?
Are you in love with me?
At all?
Or do you only desire the idea of me?
I’m starting to feel like a project
/a work in progress/
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